WARNING: I got into some graphic detail about human bodily fluids in this post.
There was a pain in my left underarm last Saturday, I was mildly concerned about it but too busy to care. It was gone by the time I woke up the next morning so I forgot all about it. My cycle had ended two days before that so I figured it was related. I got a surprise later on that day, I had what looked like a dark brown discharge. I recognized it as the discharge at the end of my period, only I had just had it.
After a few days I searched the internet (the best place to go if you want to be misinformed and then fear that you’re dying) and saw some posts on a parenting forum that described the bleeding as normal right before mothers found out they were pregnant. This wasn’t the case with me though, I mean I’ve already been pregnant twice before so I would know what the indicators are, right? Later that day my husband bought me a pregnancy test. I knew it was going to be negative, until it wasn’t.
As the urine soaked up through the “stick” I looked at the window. The horizontal line was creeping toward the middle of the window and I thought I saw a trace of a vertical line. What? My only instinct in that moment was to close my eyes and wait three seconds, when I opened up my eyes the hazy vertical line was now almost solid blue against the horizontal line. I set it down on the toilet roll holder, washed my hands and walked out of the bathroom. The box said I had to give it three minutes for an accurate result, and that’s exactly what I was going to do.
Needless to say, three minutes later that plus sign was still there. I still can’t understand what exactly washed over me in that moment. I think I was too terrified to be happy because my husband and I will be officially outnumbered in less than a year.
Initially, it didn’t go over so well with my husband. It took him a couple of days to grasp what was about to happen. I took a couple more tests from different brands and they all confirmed what the first had said.
I feel like I climbed a mountain only to see the rest of it reached into the clouds. I was worried when we found out we were pregnant with Baby A but this is different. This is surreal to me. It’s still too early to know anything other than implantation is complete, the oxidized spotting and cramping have stopped. The placenta is forming in my womb and my uterus is getting ready for expansion. Here we go.